A Dreamer's Gaze

Alright, not gonna lie, I don't really have much to report here. My diet is going OK. We did eat out more often then normal this week, so I'm afraid that as of Friday morning, I'm going strong at 207.8lbs. As of this morning though, I was at 206.4lbs! YAY! However, I'm going by Friday's morning weight, so officially I did not lose anything. BUT I did not gain! And I'm proud of that! There is something I want to talk about though, but it's not about health. Well, not physical health, more emotional health I suppose. Earlier this evening, a friend posted this on Facebook: Posts like these upset me, probably more than they should.  I hate these kinds of posts. If there is ever something to not regret, it's giving love. You can be upset about how the relationship turned out, time you can't make up, but NEVER regret giving somebody love. Giving love is the best gift you can give and you never know what kind of an impact it can have.  It can hurt ...

So, the past few months I have not been in the best place, mentally or emotionally. Back in April, bout a week before my 30th birthday, I was laid off from a job I loved. You can imagine what that did for my self esteem. Especially since I applied to other positions with the company and didn't get hired back on. That was like a punch in the gut. Especially when of the 7 stores I applied to, only 2 of them called me back to even tell me no. So, when I turned 30, I was unemployed. I was looking for entry level positions to start a new career with a new company. Places I thought I'd be perfect for, that were similar to my previous job and company, told me that I did not have the experience they were looking for or just never called back after the interview to tell me one way or another. My self esteem was shit. I felt like a failure and completely worthless. But of course I had to keep on a brave face for family and friends who tried to cheer me up. Currently, I am train...