A Dreamer's Gaze

OK, I know I'm two weeks late for this post, but you all know how life happens! So, a few years ago, my mom and I had given ourselves a goal; we were gonna be able to run a 5K by St. Patty's Day. When St. Patty's day came, I ran/jogged the whole thing! Now, I don't remember my time and I know it was more than 30 minutes, but the fact was, I did not stop! My mom managed to run maybe half of it, but for a woman in her 50's who hasn't been active like that in a long time, that was amazing! That gave us so much confidence! So, that summer, my mom and I managed to do one 5K a month! It was awesome! Each time, I got better and better and my mom was able to run more and more.  There was a race that we did back that then where the course made us run on a sidewalk that went under a bridge. We ran and followed the sidewalk until it turned a sharp almost 180 degree and made us go back to the bridge and this time run across it. Imagine my surprise when I cros

So, the past few months I have not been in the best place, mentally or emotionally. Back in April, bout a week before my 30th birthday, I was laid off from a job I loved. You can imagine what that did for my self esteem. Especially since I applied to other positions with the company and didn't get hired back on. That was like a punch in the gut. Especially when of the 7 stores I applied to, only 2 of them called me back to even tell me no. So, when I turned 30, I was unemployed. I was looking for entry level positions to start a new career with a new company. Places I thought I'd be perfect for, that were similar to my previous job and company, told me that I did not have the experience they were looking for or just never called back after the interview to tell me one way or another. My self esteem was shit. I felt like a failure and completely worthless. But of course I had to keep on a brave face for family and friends who tried to cheer me up. Currently, I am train

Whelp, I discovered something awesome about myself this week. Last Friday, I ate halibut and some celery around noon. By 4pm, I felt so sick, I couldn't stop myself from throwing EVERYTHING up! It was disgusting!!! The next day my ribs were sore and about an hour after my boyfriend had left for work, I noticed a rash forming its way down my face and neck... Now, I don't know if this was all a response to the halibut, but considering I rarely eat fish and a lot of people in my family do have a fish allergy... I'm going to play it safe. (This is a bad picture, but the only angle I could get to show the rash right in the camera!) That rash lasted for a good 3 days...  Thank god for makeup right?! With fish no longer a dietary option for me, I fell back to my good old turkey sandwich! I should confess that I have an obsession with turkey sandwiches. I have had one literally almost everyday. They aren't the fancy kind either, just your plain whole wheat bread, O

Why, hello all my lovely peeps!  Hehe... peeps...  Welcome to my blog! Like many women in America, I have struggled with my weight. This blog is about my adventure in getting healthy, both physically and mentally! My hope is that this will not only keep my accountable, but maybe inspire someone out there to take their first steps to a healthy lifestyle. This is why I'm going to be completely open, honest, and candid about my journey. Everything from my "slip ups" to how much I actually way will be posted here. I will also post current pictures of me so we can see if there is any physical change.  So, what prompted this you wonder? So many things!  Last year, my best friend got married. Actually, both my best friends got married, but not to each other. I was a bridesmaid for one of those weddings. HOWEVER, when I went online to buy my dress (the bride was awesome! She chose an affordable dress from target's website!) I realized; it's not available in my size